sending papers

Tomorrow morning I will send our first round of adoption papers into our agency.  There are all these feelings that are indescribable that well up when I think about it. 

 I have been trying to read books, but lately all I hear is what not to do, and every bad situation that could possibly ever happen.  Carl and I were driving in the car two days ago and I said, "Aren't you glad we didn't read too many books before we had our kids?"  There is so much doom and gloom out there.  Now I am the first to admit that I am a realist.  I know this is going to be HARD and there will be struggles, but don't we have that with our "birthed from the womb" children too?  

Knowledge is power, I get that, but when does a person say enough is enough?  I did order two more books and I hope that they are a little more positive!